Veganize: An Update on Stumbling Blocks

I've been a pretty good vegan lately.
I realized today that I have not eaten an egg or drank milk directly since I began this little delve into veganism.
Do I miss either?
Fuck no.
I was never much of a fan of milk to begin with. I only really drank it in tea, coffee or cereal...but soy milk is the perfect substitute for me.
It serves the purpose milk did, that's all I care about.
Eggs...I loved LOVED LOVED eggs.
With a passion.
Do I miss them?
At first I did.
The smell of scrambled eggs made my mouth water.
The heavenly scent of two round orange and white globes frying on a buttered frying pan made me wet myself with excitement and anticip...ation.
Present day: fuck no.
I realize that I do not need eggs - directly anyway.
indirectly...that's another story.
I HAVE had pieces of cake on a birthday.
This contains both eggs and milk.
I have had a timbit here and there.
It's hard to remove myself from food - when the bad food is not in a whole form.
This is my biggest struggle.
Wait, correction.
Cheese, is my biggest struggle.
While I do my best - I buy only vegan cheese, soy cheese, rice cheese for sandwiches or veggie burgers...I skip cheese on pasta, I stopped eating macaroni and cheese and I even avoid cheesecake....so help me...when midnight rolls around, and I'm baked off my ass w/ the munchies and someone comes up w/ the bright idea of ordering a vegetarian pizza...and that sucker comes and i can see the strands of melted cheese hanging off it like little luscious droopy fingers saying "come hither ...come hither.."
So help me, I blow my vegan diet to fuck and indulge in that shit.
Cheese is hard, especially on pizza.
Now I'm not saying I am perfect.
I still have so much to learn.
Here is what is important to me: I try.
I try every single DAY.
And I realize that every single time I take a bite of that timbit, or that vegetarian pizza with mozzarella....I realize EXACTLY what I am doing and I don't fool ANYONE, including myself.
I may have stopped wearing leather belts and shoes...and I may have stopped eating dairy and eggs directly...and I may buy vegan cheese and avoid anything with mozzarella or say "no cheddar" on my veggie subs... but I am FAR from being a FULL VEGAN with my current menu. Some of it is a learning process...some of it is weakness.... But I am trying, on a DAILY BASIS to rid myself of ALL animal product consumption and I find concentrating on what I AM doing helps me make less slip ups.
It's like an addict....one day at a time.
Reading really helps...animal rights meetings really help but they are just so difficult to get to because they begin at 5pm on Mondays.
I work until 5 - and to make it that much more difficult I have my radio show at 7pm...so it's just nearly impossible to get there.
But it helps being around like-minded people...and I made a promise to myself - that I am ONLY going to work towards CUTTING BACK...never adding on.
And the good thing - I haven't broken that promise yet.
Knock on wood...

Dan